Jatuh

Jatuh..

Aku jatuh..

Begitu dalam..

Sampai kegelapan menyelimutiku

Tanpa secercah cahaya pun..

Jatuh..

Aku Jatuh..

Ke dalam lubang hitam kesendirian..

Ke dalam lubang kesengsaraan..

Ke dalam neraka permusuhan...

Jatuh..

Aku jatuh..

Tanpa ada yang tahu..

Tanpa ada yang akan memperdulikan ku..

Tanpa ada yang akan menyelamatkan ku..

Jatuh..

Aku jatuh..

Di lubang kepedihan tanpa akhir ini..

Terus terombang ambing angin hinaan..

Terbentur batu-batu penghianatan..

Dan tertusuk kerikil-kerikil tajam fitnah..

Semua tanpa akhir..

Oh, mengapa ada lubang sedalam ini?

Mengapa hanya aku yang jatuh kedalam nya?

Mengapa aku yang dipilih-Nya?

Mengapa?

Apakah aku tak pantas,

Hidup dalam rumah berselimutkan kehangatan dan cahaya?

Apakah aku tak pantas,

Mendapatkan senyuman pertemanan,

Pelukan kasih sayang,

Ataupun kecupan cinta?

Apakah aku tak pantas,

Mendengar tawa riang,

Mencium wangi bunga,

Melihat keindahan alam,

Ataupun merasakan kehadiran orang-orang yang sayang kepadaku?

Jatuh..

Aku jatuh..

Dan tak pernah bisa kembali..

-Naytica-

Santa Angela

Bagai awan gelap

yang mengawali hujan,

kematian keluargamu

mengawali kesedihan.

Bagai pelangi

yang muncul setelah hujan

dan membawa keindahan,

keberhasilan dan ketegaranmu

membawa kebahagiaan.

Bagai bulan yang memberi terang

pada malam yang gelap,

engkau memberi penerangan

pada banyak orang.

Menjadi panutan bagi orang-orang

untuk menemukan Tuhan.

Seperti matahari

yang membuat bintang dan bulan

bisa bersinar.

Seorang yang penyayang

ibarat seorang ibu

bagi kami semua,

engkaulah Santa Angela

yang selalu kami kenang dalam hati

sebagai pelindung kami semua.

-Naytica-

Berada Dalam Gelap

Termenung sendirian,

Menatap kelopak merah,

Bunga mawar yang kauberikan.

Tanpa peringatan,

Seakan ada duri yang menancap,

Hati ku terasa sakit,

Memikirkan kau telah pergi,

Tak lagi berada di sampingku.

Seakan tak terbendung lagi,

Air mataku mengalir deras.

Seakan tak bisa kutahan,

Teriakan sedih penuh sesal terdengar dari mulutku.

Seakan tanpa henti,

Kata demi kata yang menunjukkan betapa ku rindu padamu

Mengalir dari mulutku.

Sungguh ku tak tahu mengapa

T'lah banyak penderitaan yang kurasakan

Kehilangan,

Kesendirian,

Tak diinginkan,

Dan dihianati.

Hingga dirimu menemukanku

Di sebuah sudut gelap,

Mengulurkan tanganmu,

Tersenyum dan berkata,

Ikutlah sebagai teman terbaikku.

Maka ku menyambut tanganmu

Dan melihat senyummu.

Kebahagiaan memenuhi diriku

Hingga terasa sesak.

Mungkin kau tak mengerti,

Namun kaulah segalanya bagiku.

Karena kaulah satu-satunya

Yang menemukanku,

Menyadariku,

Dan menerimaku.

Maka itu sekarang ku bertanya,

Mengapa kau meninggalkan ku

Di lubang kegelapan ini sekali lagi?

Dan membuang diriku demi orang lain?

Ku hanya bisa berharap,

Orang yang kau pilih,

Akan selalu memberi mu kebahagiaan yang tak bisa kuberikan,

Selalu..

Selalu ku berharap..

Meski hatiku terasa pedih tertusuk duri

Yang kau tinggalkan di dalam hatiku..

-Naytica-

Bersama, Kita Adalah Sahabat Abadi

Seperti pohon yang abadi,

Persahabatan kita juga tak kan pernah mati,

Dan terus tumbuh.

Seperti hujan dan matahari,

Persahabatan kita terkadang menyenangkan,

Dan terkadang menyedihkan.

Bersama,

Kita buat persahabatan kita berlangsung s'lamanya.

Bersama,

Kita buat persahabatan kita,

Membuahkan kebahagiaan,

Bagi kita dan orang lain.

Bersama,

Kita tumbuhkan persahabatan kita,

Dengan kepercayaan sebagai sinar matahari,

Kepedulian sebagai air,

Saling menerima apa adanya sebagai tanah,

Dan rasa sayang sebagai pupuk.

Bersama,

Kita menjadi benteng bagi persahabatan kita,

Dari tusukan-tusukan pedang iri hati,

Panah-panah ketidak percayaan,

Dan peluru-peluru kebencian.

Bersama,

Kita adalah Sahabat,

Yang tak terpisahkan.

-Naytica-

Pohon Cinta

Melihatmu,

Membuat sesuatu yang hangat,

Tumbuh di dasar kolam hatiku.

Mendengar suaramu,

Membuatnya menumbuhkan akar,

Sangat dalam.

Melihat senyum dan tawamu,

Membuatnya menumbuhkan batangnya,

Sangat panjang,

Memenuhi tubuhku,

Dengan daunnya,

Dan kehangatannya.

Menyentuhmu,

Membuatnya berbunga,

Sangat banyak dan indah,

Memenuhi tubuhku dengan aroma harum tubuhmu,

Pernyataan cintamu padaku,

Membuatnya berbuah,

Buah cinta,

Yang akan selalu mengenyangkan hatiku,

Akan cintamu.

Namun tanpamu,

Pohon cinta itu tidak bisa tumbuh,

Dan hanya menyisakan kepahitan,

Dalam buahnya yang dahulu sungguh manis,

Semanis senyummu.

Bersamamu selamanya,

Akan membuatnya tumbuh abadi,

Karena seperti cinta kita yang terus membesar,

Seiring berjalannya waktu.

-Naytica-

Birds in The Forest

Sebetulnya, ni puisi rada gaje gitu. Tapi ga tau napa suka aja gw nulis'a. wkkwwk

so, just enjoy~ Even though i don't think it'll make you feel enjoyed reading it. wahahah

In the spring,

There born new birds,

Learning to fly and sing,

To live their lifes in the future,

In the forest,

Full of green.

In the fall,

They fly up high to the seventh sky,

Enjoy the peace up there in the clouds,

And watch the red and brown leaves falling down,

In the forest,

Full of brown and red.

In the winter,

They feed their new born child in the trees,

To make sure they live,

And will continue their journey,

In this forest,

Full of white.

In the summer,

Humans come,

To catch them and kill them and take their feathers,

For their human desires,

that never ends.

Birds flew away,

Because they see,

the future that wait for them here was only death,

and sufferring.

In this hot forest,

Full of the yellow of the sun.

-Naytica-

A Beautiful Night

The Moon show up

in the very dark night.

The Stars came

and make the silent night crowded.

The Little Fairies visit your bed

and sing a lullaby to make you fall asleep.

The Moon shines,

brightly.

The Stars smile,

happily.

The Fairies sing,

beautifully.

Do you know why do they came?

Because they all know,

that tonight,

You need something special.

What is it?

It's

a beautifull night

to make your sleep nice and tight.

And make the beautiful night completed,

i give you a good-night kiss and a tight hug.

I give you my prayers,

so that you will be as good as new tomorrow.

-Naytica-

Our Journey

1st month,

we only talk and talk about each other.

2nd month,

we started to hold hands.

3rd month,

you kiss me and i kiss you

4th month,

we have lots of problems.

5th month,

we go through our problems,

and we became even closer.

6th month,

we kiss and hug,

and we gets even more related.

7th month,

we finally exchange our deepest secrets.

8th month,

we're still together,

and that is what we should be thanking the God for.

Because we've through 8 months

with problems

but we cover it with our love

and go through it.

Your hands,

raise me up when i fall

Your voice,

gives me the strength

to go through my own sufferings

Your smile,

gives me the courage

to go through the darkness

and Your Love,

that makes me

become who i am know

-Naytica-

I Want

together

from now until forever

you are my life

and you are my everything

i want to be with you

and i need to

I want to be the one

that you can rely on

i want to always makes you happy

with all i can do

I want to understand all about you

and i want you to understand me too

I want to suit you

with who i am

and what i am

I want to be in your heart

to accompany you when you're alone

to cheer you up when you're sad

and to be happy when you're happy

because i love you

for who you are

from now until forever

-Naytica-

He and She

He is special

he means everything

and he is my life

oh, i love him

I like her

i love her

because she is the reason

why am i here

He loves me

he promise me

that he'll always love me

She loves me

and i believe

more than anyone else

I like him

because he makes me

feel alive

and feel what i've never feel

She changed my life

and she changed me

she makes me understand

what i never understand before

i can never

be mad at him

for a long time

not even one day

everytime we fight

i feel guilty

and i can't let her go from my mind

not even a second

even though i'm mad

i will always say sorry

to finish the problem

because it hurts

when he's mad at me

i often make her feel sad

but she always forgive me

that's why

i will do my best

to not make her dissapointed at me

I love Him (I love Her)

and i believe

we love each other

and we understand each other

we will always be together

no matter what people say about us

-Naytica-

He Loves Me

I doubt my feelings

and say

"He wont love me

because i always make him feel bad"

But then

he convince me

he said

"Even though you often do that

but without you

my life means nothing

and you must realize

that you make me happy

more and more often

than you make me feel bad"

I'm so happy

but i'm afraid

that it'll only be temporarily

he convince me again

he said

"believe me

we will always be together"

Then

I started to erase all the bad thinkings

and only think

He really is love me

Even though he knows

I'm like this

i'm this bad

and it's hard to be my boyfriend

he still choose me

and love me for who i am

more than anyone else

I know that i make him so much trouble

that's why i'm sorry

for all of my faults

but trust me

it's all only

because i love you so much

'til i don't want to lose you

then he said

no matter what you do wrong

i will always forgive you

my sweetheart

and i promise

i will only love you

and not anyone else

-Naytica-

When Will It Bloom?

Some people say

That First Love won't bloom

Like the first snow

that wont pile up

But no one know

When will it bloom

Like no one know

When will the snow piles

They only sure and believe

That it will bloom

no matter when

Like they believe

That the snow will piles

no matter when

Because it depends

on how you live your life

which path did you choose

and how you choose your path

Like the snow will piles

depends on the temperature

on how is the atmosfer now

and how is the situation

Many people make proverbs

But they can't make the opposite of it

Like they make the proverb about that first love won't bloom

But they didn't make a proverb

when will it bloom

A few people's first love blooms

But a few more didn't

And nobody knows

When or where

it will

Cause everyobody

Live their Life differently

Like I Live my Life

different with how you Live your Life

-Naytica-

Sometimes

Sometimes

you make me feel that you hate me

Sometimes

you make me feel i want to go from your life

Sometimes

i don't know what you're thinking

Because you only keep it inside and lie to me

I oftenly feel mad at you

Because of your attitude

But i never want to show it

and i forget it right away

So you don't have to feel guilty

I know

you do the same thing for me

and i realize

it feels not good

So,

do you want to change this?

Because i believe

that if we change this

Our relationship must've be better

Than now

But you still doing it

even though i've tried not to

So, i started to act like that too

I don't know

I can't control my feelings

Well,

it's because my will is not big enough

But How can i make it big?

If the situation didn't help me for it?

Sorry for being the me

That can only make you dissapointed

Sorry for being me

That can't tell the truth to you

Sometimes

I missed you so much

But i can't do a thing to make it gone

and you can never do a thing to make it gone also

Sometimes

my tears fell suddenly

Without any warning

and make me cry

because of something

i'm not really sure what

Sometimes

i want you to care about me more

But you don't

I'm sorry for being such a jerk like this

I'm sorry for being like this

I'm sorry if you hate me

I'm sorry..

For everything i've done to you

-Naytica-

Harapanku

Hujan yang membasahi bumi ini

Seperti mencerminkan

Air mata deras di wajahku

Kesedihan,

Kemarahan,

Kekecewaan,

dan Kesendirian

memenuhi benakku

Cinta

sudah menghilang

dari diriku ini

Rasa senang tergantikan oleh kesedihan

Senyumku sirna oleh air mata

Hancur sudah harapanku

Menatap kenyataan

Hancur sudah impianku

oleh karena Cinta yang pergi

nun jauh disana

Jauh..

Dari diriku

hingga tak tergapai lagi

Oleh tangan ku

Jalanku

seakan hilang oleh batu besar

yang menutupi

dan menghilangkan

jalan yang kuimpikan

Hingga aku harus berbelok

Ke jalan yang gelap

Tanpa cahaya

Aku hanya bisa berharap

Semoga hidupmu bahagia

Tanpa ku disampingmu

Karena

Aku kan selalu

berdoa untukmu

dan mencintaimu

-Naytica-

I Like You

When I first saw you

I don't feel anything

Cause i don't know you yet

Then,

When we first know each other

I know that you were different

From any other boy

I have ever met

You look ordinary but full of mystery

You're calm but nice to talk to

You're smart but never show of

Caring and gentle but you keep it inside

Quiet in the outside but quite noisy in the inside

After a few moment

I fell in love with you

and i said,

"I Like You"

When I'm waiting for your answer

I'm scared

That you will say that you don't like me

and hate me because of this

Because i know

I'm not like you

I'm not special

and I'm not interesting

I oftenly look blue

and Rarely talk

I oftenly work alone

like a lonely dog

I'm hard to have friend

Like someone who nobody wants

and I'm not smart

or even stupid

and then,

my phone rings

There's a new messages from you

The next day,

We talk a lot

and after school you come to me

and you say

"I Love you too"

You know what,

sometimes,

what we think about ourselves is not true

and what we thought we're not like that is what we are

And from that time,

The tenth of March

is a very special day for me

Because it's the day

When i first have a boyfriend

Like you~

-Naytica-

Everytime

Everytime I remember that problem

I feel like the most terrible person in the world

I can't even be there for you

When you really need me

I can't be the one you can lay on

When you need my shoulder

I can't borrow my ears

When you need ears to hear your problems

I can't accompany you

When you're in a very critical conditions

I don't know why you keep calling me your Best Friend

Cause i don't feel i suit that name

Cause i do nothing

To make you feel better

I know nothing

About how do you feel know

About what's happening to you know

About how is your conditions know

About everything...

I can only talk bullshits

Talking like i want to do it

Walk like i can do it

But the fact,,

I never do it..

Sorry for not being your best friend

Sorry for all of my faults..

Maybe you won't read this

But i hope you know my feelings

And i hope you forgive me..

My Best Friend..

I Hope and pray so you'll get better

And we can play together again

Like the old time..

-Naytica-

Like The Rain

Today, the rain goes on

all day long

and it's like

reflecting my heart

I was crying

since yesterday night until now

just like the rain

that rains since yesterday night

until now

when i was writting this poem

and now,

I feel hard to breathe

My eyes is hurt and felt heavy

and my mind is stressed out

I don't know what should i do know

Everything that i can think

to solve this thing

Will always hurt somebody else

I'm tired of thingking

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of all of this!

My mind just can't stop making my heart cries

Inside of me

no matter everywhere i go

no matter what am i doing

no matter how many times i try to calmed down

My feelings keep saying

that i want to hear his voice

calling my name and say he loves me

but i don't want to hope

i can only read his old messages

that says he loves me so much

but i don't know why

I'm not smiling because of it

and my tears fall down

Like the rain

That keep pouring this world

with its water

-Naytica-

You Are My Love

My heart feels warm

Flowers are blooming

and the Sun is shining

In My Heart

All the sadness,

dissapointness,

and anger,

left my heart

Like it never comes

All because of you

You give me your love

and you give me your heart

You make my life

Happier than anyone

In this world

Because now,

You're My Love

-Naytica-

Colours of Feelings

Pink is Love

Red is Anger

Blue is Sadness

Yellow is Happiness

and Black is Loneliness

A Pink Rose

    shows beautiful Love

A pair of Red Thorn

    shows great anger

The Blue Sea Water

    shows deep sadness

The yellow Sun

    shows big happiness

A Black Deep Hole

    shows life full of loneliness

When you're black,

You need a Yellow to shine on you

and erase the loneliness you feel

When you're blue

You need a Pink to cover it

and make the sad covered with Love

When you're Red

You need a Yellow and Pink to push it away

and make you feel better

It's The Colour of Feelings

That you feel in your life

-Naytica-

Feeling Blue

It's blue..

My heart is very blue..

Even bluer than the Seclusian Sea

My heart is hurt

Very hurt..

Because a knife

Has stab my heart

Deeply...

The knife of betrayal

The knife of anger

The knife of sadness

and the knife of fake love

It hurts so much

Until i feel like i want to destroy it

So i don't have to feel that way

Why?

Why do i have to feel this?

And now the blue of sadness

and the red of blood

in my heart

can't be healed

Without you...

-Naytica-

My Heart, Your Heart

I give you my heart

Because it has chosen you

You always have the biggest place

In my little heart

I believe,

I also have a space in your heart

Even though it's only a small place

When you go away,

I may be feeling lonely

But my love wont change

'cause you're always in my heart

No matter where you go

and where you are

In my heart,

You accompany me

You make my heart warm

And you make my loneliness

Gone...

I hope,

I can be in your heart also

So,

i can make you feel

The way i feel

I want you to feel warm

Because my heart is with you

I want you to forget the loneliness

Because of my presence in your heart

I want you to feel love

Because my love will always be with you

-Naytica-

Love Will Never Lie

Love will never lie

Why?

Because it's from our deepest heart.

And our deepest heart can't tells lies

It will always tells the truth

Because it don't want to hurt

and be hurt

It was something

That wont change

and can't be change

From the past

until the end of the world

When my heart already choose him

I can't like anybody else

My heart wont open for anybody else

My heart

will only open it's door for him

My mouth can say "I hate him"

But in my heart,

It really hurts

Because it hurts him

Everywords that make him hurt

Always make a scar in my heart

So,

I won't lie again

I will say the truth

and the truth is,

I Love You

From my deepest heart

-Naytica-

My First Kiss

It was something

that is very important to girls

because it reflected

that the one that you kiss

Is the one that you love the most

from now until forever

When it happens,

Two soul become one

Two mind thingking the same thing

and Two heart united

as one heart full of love

When you do it,

my heart is blooming

I can't let my mind go from you

I can't think about enything else

No one and nothing

can bother us

It's like a miracle

it makes my heart feel warm

Like there was a sun inside my heart

shining and makes the flower of love inside my heart blooms beautifuly

You're my prince

You're my love

You're my everything

For you,

I give my first kiss

-Naytica-

Friendship is...

Friendship is like a Diamond

That is so Precious

True and Rare

Friendship is something

Worth more than jewels

or Money and gold

Friendship is a Miracle

That only whose who believe in each other

And understand each other can have

Friendship is like a blooming flower

That is beautiful

And reflects loves between us

Friendship is a big blessing

From the God

to Those who destined to have

Friendship is Encouraging

Appreciating

Loving

Caring

Listening

Supporting

Trusting

and Understanding each other

Friendship is a precious gift

That is hard to find

and also Hard to let go

So If you have it,

Don't let go of it

Don't ignore it

Don't forget about it

And always,

Take care of it like you take care of yourself..

-Naytica-

Without You

Without you,

I Can't Breathe

Not a second

Without you,

My Life becomes dark

Like the sun doesn't exist

Without you,

I Wont be the one i be now

Because You changed me

Without you,

My Heart will not be one

But only half

Because the other half

Is The Love that you gave me

Without you,

I can't concentrate on everything i do

Because I Can only thing about you

Without you,

I can't live

Because you're the one that fills my day with happiness and love

Without you,

My happiness will fade away

Like i have never feel it

Without you,

I can't feel the love

Like my heart is stolen

Without you,

I can't even stand up

I can only cry and be alone

Because you're my heart

You're my blood

You're my brain

You're everything that i have

-Naytica-

The Things I Hate

I Hate the way you ignored me

and the way you lie to me

I Hate you when you're not with me

and when you didn't call me

I Hate you when you say things i don't want to hear

and especially when you make me cry

I Hate you when you say you want to die

and when you said you're useless for me

I Hate it when you're not around

and make me feel alone

But mostly,

I Hate the fact that i can't hate you

No Matter what you do,

or what you say.

Because I Love You

More than any feelings i have for you..

-Naytica-

Eternal Love

It's something hard to find,

Hard to get,

and Hard to take care of

It's hard to control

But easy to say

It can only be borned

In the heart

Of two blessed souls that loves each other

It can only be found

By the lovers

Who understand each other

Who love each other

Who will never betrayed one and another

I wish i could be

Where you are now

Laying on the ground beside you

and Staring at the sky

With your hand holds my hand

When you stare at me

I can feel how deep you can see into my soul

And looked behind my eyes

To see all the feelings i have for you

A trust

Believing

Caring

and Loving

My life feels alive

Only when you're here with me

And when you're not here with me anymore

My life will be so blue..

So,

I want you to always be by my side

To accompany me

To trust me

To care about me

and to Love me

Forever and Always...

-Naytica-

The Love I Feel

It was something gentle

Something warm

Something that makes my heart feels different than usual

Something gentle

and caring

It's something,

you can only feel

with someone you can share your love to

A gentle touch by hand

A nice big smile

A warm big hug

And a good night kiss

Your Mind

Your body

Your mouth

Your heart

Will never forget

The warmness

The gentleness

and the happiness

Every year, every day, every minute, and even every second

It will always shows up

In your heart, your body, and your mind

To accompany you

walking in the path of your life

Like in heaven that you can't feel

If the one is gone...

-Naytica-

What You Are for Me

You are my bestfriend

Who can help me anytime

Who never let me down

Who always care about me

Who never betrayed me

You are the one that i can rely on

You always give me words to cheer me up

You always lend your ears to listen to my problems

You always listen to me

Even though you have problems also

You never ignored me

That's what you are for me

And I'm sure everybody else also think that way

Because you're a very special friend

That not everybody can have

So,

I Will always be ready

To hear Your problems

To help you with everything i can do

To accompany you when you're lonely

And you have to know,

You make me like this

You're the reason i can be the person i am now

Because without you

I'm sure i will not have this wonderful life i have now

That's why i say i'm lucky

To have someone like you

As my bestfriend

Thank you very much

For all your help

My bestfriend

-Naytica-

When I Thought

When i thought i can be happy

I'm sad..

When i thought i love him

I'm dissapointed at him..

When i thought i'm number one

I'm number two..

When i thought I Love this day

I hate this day..

When i thought you cared bout me

You didn't..

When i thought you're happy to be with me

You're not..

When i thought i can make you happy

I can't..

When i thought our problem is done

It's getting worse

When i thought you're listening to me

You're not

When i thought you want to do it for me

I was wrong

When i thought it will be successful

It's not

But when i thought it was over

It's not..

-Naytica-

When I Met You

When i first met you at the fifth grade,

I thought you're only the same as any other boy i've met

But, after we know each other

And finally became best friends,

I Know that you're DEFFINETLY different

Because you're kind

You never mock me, like other people did

You cared bout me, when no one did

You sent me messages, when i'm lonely

You accompany me, when i don't have anybody

Even though we didn't contact each other

Like we did in the past

But i still want to be your best friend

Now, it's like we have a wall between us

You have her

And I have him

We can't contact a lot like in the past

But you still try to

And that make me happy

Especially, you make me smile when you sent me a messages

And when i'm in trouble,

At that time also,

U sent me a messages

I don't know if it's destiny

Or you know it

But thanks to you,

I can smile again

even though my heart still hurts

Thank you,

My Bestfriend

-Naytica-

Bagaikan

Bagaikan Hujan

Airmata ku mengalir deras

Bagaikan guntur

Suara hatiku berteriak

Bagaikan tertusuk pisau

Hatiku terasa sakit

Bagaikan heno heno mo heji

Aku pun sedang bersedih

Bagaikan angin

Aku dianggap tak ada

Bagaikan air

Aku hanya bisa menerima semua itu

Dgn mengalir bagai air dalam sungai hidupku

Bagaikan batu

Tak bisa berbicara

Tak bisa mengeluh

Tak bisa mengatakan isi hatiku

Bagaikan penjahat

Aku di penjara

Dalam kesakitan

Bagaikan tanah

Aku selalu diinjak-injak

Tanpa ampun

Bagaikan sampah

Aku dibuang begitu saja...

-Naytica-

Mistakes

It's easy to made
But it's very hard to take responsibilities for it

It's easy to do
But it's hard to forget

It's easy to say sorry
But it's hard to be forgived

It's easy to make people believe that it's just a missunderstood
But it's very hard to cover it all with lies

It's easy to lie bout it
But it's hard to make people believe in you again

It's easy to be written
But it's hard to be erased

It's easy for you to forget
but it's hard for other people to forget

It's easy to think that was wrong
but it's hard to admit it

Mistakes, can make you feel hard to walk on your path of life
So try not to make them

-Naytica-

It's Hard to..

It's hard to say I Love Him
but It's harder to say I Hate Him

It's hard to live with him
but it's harder to live without him

It's hard to say hello
But it's harder to say goodbye

It's hard to hug him
but it's harder to just let him go

It's hard to be with him
but it's harder to leave him

It's hard to believe him
but it's harder to not believe him

It's hard to stare at him
but it's harder to not look at him

It's all hard,
But all the harder to say what i always wanted to...

I Have to Believe in Him

My Mind says,
"It hurts my feeling"
but My Heart says,
"It's okay"

My Mind says,
"He's wrong"
but My Heart says,
"I'M wrong"

My Mind says,
"He shouldn't do that"
but My Heart says,
"He didn't mean it"

My Mind says,
"I don't want to answer him"
but My Heart says,
"I have to"

My Mind says,
"I'm tired of all this"
but My Heart says,
"I have to be strong"

and I say,
"I have to believe in him..."

-Naytica-

I Would Rather Choose...

If one day, someone ask me to choose,,
Between Intelligence
and Your Love,,,
I would rather choose Your Love

If someone ask me to choose,,
Between our Friendship
and Mountains of Money,,,
I would rather choose our Friendship

If someone want me to choose,,
Between My Boyfriend
and My Bestfriend,,,
I can't choose...

You two,
Are TOO Precious for me

I would rather die
Than have to choose
Between you two...

I can't live,
If one of you leave me...

So,,
Please...

Don't leave me...

I Love you two so much..

This poem is for 2 of my precious people

-Naytica-

The Day Won't Come

If there's someone wants us to be separated

They wont find the day

If there's someone wants us to become enemies

That person is the one that will be our enemies

If there's someone wants us to say "goodbye" each other

That person is the one that'll say "goodbye" to us

Because

WE can't be separated

WE can't be enemies

WE can't say "goodbye" to each other

WE can't be separated

       Because our heart is TOO CLOSE to be separated

WE can't be enemies

       Because WE are too close to HATE each other

WE can't say "goodbye" to each other

       Because WE both don't want to be ALONE again

That's why we call our relationship as

Best friends

And you are my Best Friend

-Naytica-

You Won't Find Them Twice

Best Friends

You must've heard that words oftenly

But sometimes,

People missunderstood the true meaning of this words

Best Friend is someone that is close to you

more than anyone else

They're hard to find

and hard to let go

They're more precious than money or gold

but we can't buy them

They're unreplaceable

and can't be anybody else

We must guard them

so nobody will took them from us

We mustn't let them go

Because we can't find someone like them AGAIN

We must make them smile

Like they always makes us smile

We must believe in them

Like they believe in us

We mustn't betrayed them

Like they didn't betrayed us

We must hold them tight

So we will always be together

As Best Friend...

-Naytica-

The Feeling is Love

This feeling is in my heart

It makes me feel warm and nice

It makes me feel happy whenever i met him

It makes my heart beats faster when i met him

It makes me shy and blushing when i'm with him

What is this feeling?

Why does it feel so nice?

Why can it makes me feel this way?

Before i met you,

I never felt this way

I never expected i can feel this way

This really is a feeling that i can't forgot

No matter what i do

It follows me

In my dreams

In my days

In my nights

And whereever i go

And a few months after that,

I realize what is this feeling

This Feeling is

Love

This is a feeling that i can only feel

When i met you...

-Naytica-

My Love

You are a very special gift for me

You know why?

Because you love me the way i am.

I'm very happy that the God gave me a chance

To have someone like you.

Because, having someone like you

As my "partner" is a blessing

That not everyone can get

You gave me your heart

That is so warm

Until i will never feel cold

Because of your love

You always trust me

Until i feel like i want to do things that i don't even like

Just for you

You always keep me in your heart

And guard me from any bad things

So i wont lose you

and you wont lose me

You do things

That i never imagined i will feel

I love you,

For all that you make me feel

And for all that you give me

But you have to know

That i also love you the way you are

-Naytica-

Hubungan Kita

3 Hari Yang Lalu

Hatiku Hancur

Hatiku seakan hampa tanpa rasa

Hatiku bagai terusuk tombak yang tak dapat dilepas

Aku dan Dia yang bertengkar

Karena kesalahpahaman

Aku dan Dia yang bertengkar

Hanya karena orang lain

Aku dan Dia

Bagai sama-sama tak lagi punya rasa

Ku Menangis

Menangis karena kata-katanya

Menangis karena Kata-kata yang menusuk hati

Karena Ia seakan tak lagi memperdulikanku

Namun baru ku tahu

Bahwa Ia melakukan itu demi diriku

Bahwa Ia melakukan itu agar hatiku tak perlu menahan rasa sakit yang lebih dalam

Air mataku pun bertambah deras

Bagai sudah terbendung sejak lama

Air mataku mengalir tanpa henti bagai air terjun

Oh Sayang, maafkanlah aku

Karena aku salah pahan

Karena aku hanya bisa menyalahkanmu

Karena aku selalu memulai pertengkaran

Ku tak ingin ini terjadi lagi

Maka itu, janganlah kau menyembunyikan perasaan mu

Tunjukkanlah isi hatimu

Curahkan perasaanmu

Agar tak ada rahasia diantara kita

Agar kita saling mengerti

Agar hubungan kita tak terputus lagi

Agar kita bisa bersatu sampai akhir hidup kita

-Naytica-

Hujan Turun

Hujan yang Turun

Bagaikan air mata

Yang melambangkan kesedihan yang amat

Hujan yang Turun

Melambangkan Kesedihan

Melambangkan Hati yang menangis sedih

Melambangkan Tangisan

Hujan yang Turun

Bersama Guntur

Yang bagaikan teriakan

Teriak sedih seseorang

Mata yang berkilat

Bagai kilatan cahaya petir

Air mata yang mengalir deras

Bagai hujan yang tiada henti

Teriak tangis penuh kesedihan

Bagai suara petir yang menggelegar

-Naytica-

Curahan Hatiku

Entah apa yang kurasakan kini

Entah apa yang kupikirkan kini

Ku tak tahu lagi

Kepada siapa ku bisa bersandar

Ku tak tahu lagi

Mengapa ku merasakan ini

Ku tak bisa lagi merasakan

Perasaan sayang orang-orang di sekitarku terhadapku

Ku tak bisa lagi merasakan

Perasaan orang-orang yang membutuhkanku

Saat ini ku merasa

Tak berguna

Saat ini ku merasa

Tak ada gunanya aku hidup

Saat ku menangis

Tak ada orang yang memperhatikanku

Saat ku merasa sedih

Tak ada yang menanyakan keadaanku

Saat ku merasa sedih

Tak ada yang mau tahu mengapa ku sedih

Dimanapun aku berada

Tak ada yang mempedulikanku

Siapapun

Tak akan peduli denganku

Tak kan ada orang yang menangis atas kematianku

Tak kan ada yang mengingatku

Ketika ku sudah pergi untuk selamanya

Tak kan ada yang mau mendoakanku

Tak kan ada yang memikirkanku lagi

Inilah curahan perasaanku

Inilah yang kurasakan

Inilah isi hatiku saat ini

Inilah yang ku ingin orang lain tahu...