A New Start

Over the sky
Under the water
Out of the world
Inside the heart

Anywhere
Everywhere
Feelings wont lie
Words always come

And here's a new blog
By Naytica Tellamy
Devoted only to my writings

I hope you guys like it~

-Naytica-

Calls

Your voice
A dream

Your voice
A star

Your face
A day

Your presence
A world

Looks my heart
To you

A hunch
Calls to embrace

An instinct
Calls to love

A hug

Sent to a world
On a day
Within a dream
Under a star

-Naytica-

The Gravity

Approaching a smile
Towards the lips
How I can't take my eyes off
Of the gravity

Approaching eyes
Towards the future I see inside
How I can't get my mind off
Of the gravity

Smiling to the laughter
To the love I hear
How I cant get my heart off
Of the gravity

I have all I need
I have all I can ask for
Endorsed in the gravity
I have all I love

-Naytica-

Feelings of An Innocent Soul

A feeling
A thought
Felt unconciously
Driven uncontrollable

Despised by others
Hurt by itself
So badly it scars
An innocent soul

Despicable says others
Disgraceful says itself
So much it conceals
An innocent soul

A feeling
A thought
Full of vengeance
Dosed by hatred

-Naytica-

Rivers of Secret

More to love

Yes, about you

Without doubts

Heartfelt words as proof

Of you, of us

Living danger

Entrusted by love

Weak and puny

Only I know myself

Rivers of secrets

Looking flawless yet

Drowned in remorse

Is not about you

Is not about me

Is about us

Driven sideways by regret

In the rivers of secret

Another dream

Another wish

Washed away

-Naytica-

Powerless

Loud and clear

The message was heard

Straight forward your words come out

"I love you"

"I want you"

"I need you"

Hummings

Unclear whispers

Complicated answers

All I can say

"You're beautiful"

"You're kind"

"You're perfect"

Turned my face away

Blushed and hid it

Said no to everything

All I can do

Poweless

Against a life impossible

Against a wish impeccable

"Will you be mine?"

-Naytica-

Every Choice

Picture your face

Painted as a masterpiece on a vase

Delivered with passion

Wrapped with unlimited devotion

To eternity it goes

Through years and worlds

Between the past and present

All it knows are memories and the future

Upon a raging ocean it swims

Taking every step with peace

Peace, to ease every heart

Knows only not to feel

Knows only not to think

Knows only to hide its appearance

Under the open sky

Considering every choice with intellect

Though a thought is not to choose

For a mind unsettled

For a heart insecured

For a pair of hands tied behind

For lips bound to shut

In the middle of the running world

A soul to choose its path

-Naytica-

Vintage Age

Dependant on love

Only God knows why

Nevertheless I live

To see either A or B

Landlord of a space

Eventually abandoned and aged

After years of company

Vintage age, I suppose

Endure death, not a choice

Maked with a grin

Endorsed in luxury

Though I'm young

Though I'm stupid

Though I'm yours

Though we're only human

-Naytica-

Summer Evening

Indistinct place

Dusty furnitures

Rusty silverwares

Empty halls

A part of a dream

Made of anguish

Treated with riddles

On a summer evening

Full of orange

Yet no wish can ever be wished

On this summer evening

Upon the sky nor the ground

Every night since

Every second since

Every time I close my eyes

How I wish dreams would last

Forever

-Naytica-

Down The Well And Up

At a crop field

Charging towards high grass

Rise my face against the wind

Over the sky my heart goes

Seeing things i never saw

Seeking things i never got

To travel under the sun

Harassed by thoughts of a face

Enchanted by dreams that never came

Without worries

Or even fears

Raising my hopes to a world unknown

Losing my cool to the thought of a star

Down the well and up

I wish i can go

-Naytica-

Fullmoon

Untied to the world

Night is its company

Driving wishes to come true

Engrossed with the universe

Rooting souls to never quit

Tonight I stare

Humming with the wind

Enchanted by the love song it made

Morning to stay behind

Oceans to bow upon you

Own every soul beneath your dim light

Never dark, never obscure

I wish

I pray

I admire

Oh fullmoon

I kneel upon you

-Naytica-

In Time And Space

Another day I do not wish for

Looking blue

Looking black

Irrational yet as real as the sun

Towards hours I walk

Haunted by rays of moonlight

I know it's you

Not close, not far

Keeps me searching for the star

Anything I do

Bound to say "The world is unfair"

Or "I want to be up in the sky"

Unlike any other

Time and space is the reason

If I only know

Such a thing I wouldn't do

Yet derived by depression

Only comfort I seek

Untied, unbound

Ever since I found you

-Naytica-

Of You And You

Instinctive feeling

Made to drive my heart

Interestingly against my will

Secretly towards you

Simply not understandable

Yet tears are there as proof

Of how the heart does

Until I see you

Sounds and pictures

Of you and you

Missing so much, I lost you

Upon a dream I hung myself

Carrying my only prayer

How I want to see you

And I need you and you

-Naytica-

Memangku Anak Bulan

Dipenuhi tanah

Tangan mencari buah

Berselimut harap

Bersarungkan keyakinan

Ditemani peluh mengisi meja

Dengan hadiah, dengan syukur

Satu malam berlalu

Tuhan masih menemani

Merindu dunia

Bayang-bayang jauh di Bulan

Menutup diri dari sungai

Sungai jauh dari bumi

Para penempa bumi

Mengangkut, menimang anak Bulan

Bagai kancil menjamu singa

Buta namun melihat

Memangku anak Bulan

Di tengah jantung bumi

Bagai kucing menjamu anjing

Takjub akan satu sama lain

Saling tatap, saling tak acuh

Memanggil tanah perantara dunia

-Naytica-

Through The Sky

Young and heavy
Overreacting over a whisper
Unintended charm
Reaching for you

Victor in my life
Offers me a whole new one
Inflicts my thoughts
Chanting in my head
Extracting every feeling I have

Enters my heart
Neverending smile
Took a flower
Above the sky it comes from
Next to a goddess
God knows where
Leaving a past behind
Escaping the present
Seeking the future to be

Married to a dream
Yes, i wish for a dream

Here in the southeastern coast
Every rain is to scream
After another burden is hidden
Right outside your door
Tis only where i yield

Everytime i go under the sun
Through the sky
Through the planet

-Naytica-

Beats Of My Heart

Beats of my heart
Uneven
Unabout
Scattered around my body
Boils my blood
Moves my muscles

Creating its own world
Convinced it's perfect
Perfectly empty it seems
But a light behind the shadows

It's true self concealed
Behind a smile
Far away
A bit of a mystery
Pulling towards

Beats of my heart
Uneven
Unabout
Skips a beat with every word
Jumps out with every whisper

Compiling my own book
Of unraveled mysteries
Of untouched secrets
To the deep I go
To my own world i hide
My secret to always keep

-Naytica-

Sin is Now My Friend

Going sideways
under the sun
or between the days

will never make it
will always stop

too hot
too far
under the sun is my limit

too used to it
too warm
between the days is my place

getting nowhere
yet staying on track

trying to break free
yet powerless against love

trying to break free
yet powerless against the past

am i doing the right thing?
yet i know sin is now my friend

-Naytica-

Meeting You Was A Coincidence

Meeting you was a coincidence
Your heart was afar

Looking for you was never a challenge
Until you went and fly away
Chanting my name nowadays
Kicks in my head from thoughts of you
Yards i wish i can make

Chatting as time goes
Harvesting feelings like none before
Asking why along the way
Rescuing a soul about to be depraved
Meeting you was a blessing

And i can only hope
For more as you're here

-Naytica-

Silverwares

Like silverwares waiting to be polished
A box

Made of gold

Made of coal

Made of emerald

Made of dirt

Waiting to get cleaned

Like silverwares waiting to be sparkling

A box

Made of depression

Made of desperation

Made of suppressed memories

Made of pain

Waiting to get cleaned

So heavy it's looking for help

So painful it's looking for drugs

So hard it's planning to give up

Like silverwares, only waiting

A box

Wishing to be dead as a silverware

-Naytica-

Mimpi Semata

Berjuta rasa
Berjuta kata
Remukkan hati
Menjadi serpih demi serpih

Kulepas air mata
Jatuh ke dunia
Tak bersahabat
Tak berakhir

Kurelakan sepasang mata
Tertutup karena pedih
Luka mendalam
Sakit tak berbekas

Setitik cahaya tak kentara
Penuh harap
Penuh dosa
Bagi dunia itu dosa

Secercah impian
Penuh cinta
Penuh tawa
Bagi dunia itu musuh

Selarik nada
Penuh rindu
Penuh angan
Bagi dunia itu harus sirna

Begitu tak bersahabat
Begitu mimpi semata

-Naytica-

Dear, I'm Letting You Go

Simply trying to understand
The meaning of forgetting
The meaning of remembering
The meaning of cherishing
A memory that has been there
And will always be

Lying
To cover up a story
I never wanted to share
I never wanted to acknowledge

Fading
To remove the dark pictures
I always wanted to throw
I always wanted to vanish

Simply trying to understand
The meaning of letting go
The meaning of throwing everything away
The meaning of putting everything far away
A secret that has been there
And will always be

A secret to always hide
A secret to never mention
A secret between you and me
Dear, have we changed
Dear, have we decided
Dear, I'm letting you go

-Naytica-

Menanti Kesempatan

Mencinta langit
Dikala hujan tak terlihat
Mencinta air
Dikala hujan berlimpah

Menatap cakrawala
Tanpa lelah, tanpa letih
Mencari secercah sinar
Menilik seberkas cahaya

Terbalut rintik
Berselimut rindu
Bersemayam dalam dingin
Mencinta gelapnya awan

Tanpa payung untuk berteduh
Tak seorang tuk melindungi
Tak seorang tuk berbagi

Sendiri

Sedu-sedan kan berakhir
Kapan?
Entah
Tak kurasa hujan miliki akhir
Tak kurasa waktu bersahabat

Esok yang kuimpikan
Subuh yang kunanti
Demi mencari belahan jiwa
Tatkala dunia tak mengijinkan
Kugenggam erat dirimu dalam hati
Hati yang merenung
Menanti kesempatan

-Naytica-

X

A firm grasp of who i am
Levelled up by glances
Enhanced by voices
X as the sign of wrong
Another kiss is stolen
Not one you does not know
Directly through my body
Enters my heart like an open room
Reaches my deepest fears

Asked by your heart
Beyond a firm line
Enterring a new world
Leaving my sorrow

Infinite possibilities

Looking for a future
Only the two of us
Vows over rings
Escaped the world

You took my hand
Over night i dream
United as one

And forever more i wish
And forever more we are
And forever more i will

-Naytica-

Only You Know Why

Ready for an opportunity
Invited by a sweet voice
Chanting in my head
Hey, will you stay
Another second passes
Restarting my options
Don't leave

Just a path
Obligations to choose
Handing me more than i can ever deal
Another second passes
Never going away
Simply loving
Enough darkness
No more wandering

In this state

Leaving my conscious away
Overcoming fears for good
Vibrations of love found
Echoing music to now and ever

Yielding a sword
Only to pierce a heart
Unlikely to harm

And only you know why

-Naytica-

Unlike The World

Facing our fears
Facing our time
Facing our deaths

Unlike life
they're dark

Unlike the world
they're fair

Fair for their way
Choices are not to be
Questions are not to be asked
Wishes are meant only to break

Escaping
my only wish
broken by a failure

Running away
my only choice
blocked by a wall
made by my own heart

Hiding
my only way
revealed by fear
my own fear

Surrounded by knives
Tempted by 2 stories up
Searching for a way to go
Without pain
Without thoughts
Just peace
and silence

Unlike the world
They're fair
Towards their preys
By their own rules

-Naytica-

Love Asks

Love far away from here
Love stunned by space
Love blocked by time
Love rejected by heart
Love simply asking for understanding
Love simply wanting some affection

"Is it death?"
love asks,
"Or is it merely pain without wounds?"

Life
asking for decision

World
asking for a choice

Heart
seeking for a place to hide

Human
wishing for love to go
waiting for love to come
asking for love to vanish
hoping for love to stay

"Is this normal?"
love asks
"Or is this merely a sin made by human?"

Love
simply asking for directions

-Naytica-

The Depth of A Secret

Darkness
In unlimited depth
As well as a heart
with unlimited capacity
Has their share of secrets

Unknown by itself
Hidden from others
Concealed from many

Unfairness
In years of living
As well as the world
with its unlimited crimes

Revealed at times
Hated by then
Despised immediately

Yes
I realize
Yes
I know
Of its existence
Yet my conscious
Is all but acknowledging

The depth of a secret
Untouched by conscious
Made by reality
Taken away by life
And unwanted by time and space

-Naytica-