I Want

together

from now until forever

you are my life

and you are my everything

i want to be with you

and i need to

I want to be the one

that you can rely on

i want to always makes you happy

with all i can do

I want to understand all about you

and i want you to understand me too

I want to suit you

with who i am

and what i am

I want to be in your heart

to accompany you when you're alone

to cheer you up when you're sad

and to be happy when you're happy

because i love you

for who you are

from now until forever

-Naytica-

He and She

He is special

he means everything

and he is my life

oh, i love him

I like her

i love her

because she is the reason

why am i here

He loves me

he promise me

that he'll always love me

She loves me

and i believe

more than anyone else

I like him

because he makes me

feel alive

and feel what i've never feel

She changed my life

and she changed me

she makes me understand

what i never understand before

i can never

be mad at him

for a long time

not even one day

everytime we fight

i feel guilty

and i can't let her go from my mind

not even a second

even though i'm mad

i will always say sorry

to finish the problem

because it hurts

when he's mad at me

i often make her feel sad

but she always forgive me

that's why

i will do my best

to not make her dissapointed at me

I love Him (I love Her)

and i believe

we love each other

and we understand each other

we will always be together

no matter what people say about us

-Naytica-

He Loves Me

I doubt my feelings

and say

"He wont love me

because i always make him feel bad"

But then

he convince me

he said

"Even though you often do that

but without you

my life means nothing

and you must realize

that you make me happy

more and more often

than you make me feel bad"

I'm so happy

but i'm afraid

that it'll only be temporarily

he convince me again

he said

"believe me

we will always be together"

Then

I started to erase all the bad thinkings

and only think

He really is love me

Even though he knows

I'm like this

i'm this bad

and it's hard to be my boyfriend

he still choose me

and love me for who i am

more than anyone else

I know that i make him so much trouble

that's why i'm sorry

for all of my faults

but trust me

it's all only

because i love you so much

'til i don't want to lose you

then he said

no matter what you do wrong

i will always forgive you

my sweetheart

and i promise

i will only love you

and not anyone else

-Naytica-

When Will It Bloom?

Some people say

That First Love won't bloom

Like the first snow

that wont pile up

But no one know

When will it bloom

Like no one know

When will the snow piles

They only sure and believe

That it will bloom

no matter when

Like they believe

That the snow will piles

no matter when

Because it depends

on how you live your life

which path did you choose

and how you choose your path

Like the snow will piles

depends on the temperature

on how is the atmosfer now

and how is the situation

Many people make proverbs

But they can't make the opposite of it

Like they make the proverb about that first love won't bloom

But they didn't make a proverb

when will it bloom

A few people's first love blooms

But a few more didn't

And nobody knows

When or where

it will

Cause everyobody

Live their Life differently

Like I Live my Life

different with how you Live your Life

-Naytica-

Sometimes

Sometimes

you make me feel that you hate me

Sometimes

you make me feel i want to go from your life

Sometimes

i don't know what you're thinking

Because you only keep it inside and lie to me

I oftenly feel mad at you

Because of your attitude

But i never want to show it

and i forget it right away

So you don't have to feel guilty

I know

you do the same thing for me

and i realize

it feels not good

So,

do you want to change this?

Because i believe

that if we change this

Our relationship must've be better

Than now

But you still doing it

even though i've tried not to

So, i started to act like that too

I don't know

I can't control my feelings

Well,

it's because my will is not big enough

But How can i make it big?

If the situation didn't help me for it?

Sorry for being the me

That can only make you dissapointed

Sorry for being me

That can't tell the truth to you

Sometimes

I missed you so much

But i can't do a thing to make it gone

and you can never do a thing to make it gone also

Sometimes

my tears fell suddenly

Without any warning

and make me cry

because of something

i'm not really sure what

Sometimes

i want you to care about me more

But you don't

I'm sorry for being such a jerk like this

I'm sorry for being like this

I'm sorry if you hate me

I'm sorry..

For everything i've done to you

-Naytica-

Harapanku

Hujan yang membasahi bumi ini

Seperti mencerminkan

Air mata deras di wajahku

Kesedihan,

Kemarahan,

Kekecewaan,

dan Kesendirian

memenuhi benakku

Cinta

sudah menghilang

dari diriku ini

Rasa senang tergantikan oleh kesedihan

Senyumku sirna oleh air mata

Hancur sudah harapanku

Menatap kenyataan

Hancur sudah impianku

oleh karena Cinta yang pergi

nun jauh disana

Jauh..

Dari diriku

hingga tak tergapai lagi

Oleh tangan ku

Jalanku

seakan hilang oleh batu besar

yang menutupi

dan menghilangkan

jalan yang kuimpikan

Hingga aku harus berbelok

Ke jalan yang gelap

Tanpa cahaya

Aku hanya bisa berharap

Semoga hidupmu bahagia

Tanpa ku disampingmu

Karena

Aku kan selalu

berdoa untukmu

dan mencintaimu

-Naytica-

I Like You

When I first saw you

I don't feel anything

Cause i don't know you yet

Then,

When we first know each other

I know that you were different

From any other boy

I have ever met

You look ordinary but full of mystery

You're calm but nice to talk to

You're smart but never show of

Caring and gentle but you keep it inside

Quiet in the outside but quite noisy in the inside

After a few moment

I fell in love with you

and i said,

"I Like You"

When I'm waiting for your answer

I'm scared

That you will say that you don't like me

and hate me because of this

Because i know

I'm not like you

I'm not special

and I'm not interesting

I oftenly look blue

and Rarely talk

I oftenly work alone

like a lonely dog

I'm hard to have friend

Like someone who nobody wants

and I'm not smart

or even stupid

and then,

my phone rings

There's a new messages from you

The next day,

We talk a lot

and after school you come to me

and you say

"I Love you too"

You know what,

sometimes,

what we think about ourselves is not true

and what we thought we're not like that is what we are

And from that time,

The tenth of March

is a very special day for me

Because it's the day

When i first have a boyfriend

Like you~

-Naytica-

Everytime

Everytime I remember that problem

I feel like the most terrible person in the world

I can't even be there for you

When you really need me

I can't be the one you can lay on

When you need my shoulder

I can't borrow my ears

When you need ears to hear your problems

I can't accompany you

When you're in a very critical conditions

I don't know why you keep calling me your Best Friend

Cause i don't feel i suit that name

Cause i do nothing

To make you feel better

I know nothing

About how do you feel know

About what's happening to you know

About how is your conditions know

About everything...

I can only talk bullshits

Talking like i want to do it

Walk like i can do it

But the fact,,

I never do it..

Sorry for not being your best friend

Sorry for all of my faults..

Maybe you won't read this

But i hope you know my feelings

And i hope you forgive me..

My Best Friend..

I Hope and pray so you'll get better

And we can play together again

Like the old time..

-Naytica-

Like The Rain

Today, the rain goes on

all day long

and it's like

reflecting my heart

I was crying

since yesterday night until now

just like the rain

that rains since yesterday night

until now

when i was writting this poem

and now,

I feel hard to breathe

My eyes is hurt and felt heavy

and my mind is stressed out

I don't know what should i do know

Everything that i can think

to solve this thing

Will always hurt somebody else

I'm tired of thingking

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of all of this!

My mind just can't stop making my heart cries

Inside of me

no matter everywhere i go

no matter what am i doing

no matter how many times i try to calmed down

My feelings keep saying

that i want to hear his voice

calling my name and say he loves me

but i don't want to hope

i can only read his old messages

that says he loves me so much

but i don't know why

I'm not smiling because of it

and my tears fall down

Like the rain

That keep pouring this world

with its water

-Naytica-